I hate to admit it, but, I still love you. Don’t ask me why when you’ve been such an asshole. I mean really, waiting until I asked you a random question to tell me you were lying about not having feelings for me anymore? That’s kind of a low blow in my opinion. But even for all that, I love you. Despite what my brain and everyone else is telling me, I still love you.
And even though I love you, I have a few questions for you. If you still had feelings for me the whole time, why the fucking hell did you say yes to her? And why the hell can’t you choose one woman? You know it’s not fair to me or her, or even yourself. But whatever I guess. She is doing the same thing. Having feelings for more than one guy at the same time I mean. So, I guess, in its own shitty, make-me-want-to-cry-my-heart-out way, this whole damn situation is perfect. Perfect for you and her anyway.
I know I won’t find someone like you. Ever. But oh well I guess. And do you know, a person is only truly in love once in their life? Yeah, it’s true. And I hope you can figure your shit out and make up your mind. Because even though I love you, I’m not waiting anymore. I gave up the fight and you seem happy enough. I’m not, but its fine. I’ll be alright. I’ll find my own way. I’ll find someone that might be able to blur your memory. Hopefully.
I’m sorry that this is rude and unwarranted. But… After you told me you were lying about not having feelings for me anymore… I just… Couldn’t seem to stop thinking about you. And I damn you and myself for that. Every single day. Because you always being on my mind is not fair to anyone. I won’t ask you to leave me alone, but I will ask you to please answer my questions to the best of your ability. And be honest please. I… I can’t take anymore lies from you. I can’t. Because if you lie to me again, I will have to stop talking to you. I would hate to do it, but… If you were to continue to lie to me, I don’t think I’d be able to trust you.
Anyway. I’m sorry again, for this being rude. I just… Wanted to get that all off my chest. So… I love you. Um… Reply? Please? I really don’t want to stop talking to you. I want you as a friend because I like talking to you once in a while. You know, when you answer my texts. Anyway. I’m going to go now. Bye.
And even though I love you, I have a few questions for you. If you still had feelings for me the whole time, why the fucking hell did you say yes to her? And why the hell can’t you choose one woman? You know it’s not fair to me or her, or even yourself. But whatever I guess. She is doing the same thing. Having feelings for more than one guy at the same time I mean. So, I guess, in its own shitty, make-me-want-to-cry-my-heart-out way, this whole damn situation is perfect. Perfect for you and her anyway.
I know I won’t find someone like you. Ever. But oh well I guess. And do you know, a person is only truly in love once in their life? Yeah, it’s true. And I hope you can figure your shit out and make up your mind. Because even though I love you, I’m not waiting anymore. I gave up the fight and you seem happy enough. I’m not, but its fine. I’ll be alright. I’ll find my own way. I’ll find someone that might be able to blur your memory. Hopefully.
I’m sorry that this is rude and unwarranted. But… After you told me you were lying about not having feelings for me anymore… I just… Couldn’t seem to stop thinking about you. And I damn you and myself for that. Every single day. Because you always being on my mind is not fair to anyone. I won’t ask you to leave me alone, but I will ask you to please answer my questions to the best of your ability. And be honest please. I… I can’t take anymore lies from you. I can’t. Because if you lie to me again, I will have to stop talking to you. I would hate to do it, but… If you were to continue to lie to me, I don’t think I’d be able to trust you.
Anyway. I’m sorry again, for this being rude. I just… Wanted to get that all off my chest. So… I love you. Um… Reply? Please? I really don’t want to stop talking to you. I want you as a friend because I like talking to you once in a while. You know, when you answer my texts. Anyway. I’m going to go now. Bye.